After we finish this, time for a shower and to just sit there. Turn everything off and just try to get our balance back.
We're feeling really empty right now. it's like the full terror of being raped and having PTSD hits you all at once. It also feels like almost no one either wants to listen or can be trusted. We don't fit into a nice neat catagory (returning vet with PTSD who's entitled to the following list of services). Which means in many cases we don't know what to do with you. A guy rape survivor? What's that? And other strange situations.
Everything takes a tremendous amount of energy. We feel like we're fighting to not dissociate all day long. Then, we have everything else to do as well. Almost nothing is safe to listen to, read or watch.
At times, do you feel like you'll be scarred for life?
Do you like like the "mental illness" PTSD label will always be there?
Do you wonder if you'll ever have a symptom free day?
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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