Covering Bases

How's your day? Here it's getting into the mid '90s during the day. The good news is no snow :). We've done our share of digging out of snowdrifts, chiseling your car out of the giant block of ice it turned into and more. No more.

We're still fighting to focus and wake up in the morning. It's a mix of massage all over to get your chi flowing. It's also a matter of diet (no caffeine or sugar the night before). The idea is this. If you drink this the night before, you're up on the high all night. Then you crash and have hypoglycemic symptoms the next morning. Is this one of the biggest problems in PTSD symptoms? Maybe. We've only seen one study on this.

Then, it's fighting all day long to focus. We've thought about offing ourselves in the past. But we won't do it because we won't give them the satisfaction.

What keeps you going? We keep going because just going with your feelings doesn't work. Do you still feel like if you don't fight back the world will beat you down? Everyone that treated you like s**t will just laugh in your face as you fight to not sink down and fall apart? Do you still have violent flashbacks where you either fight or die? Nothing against vets with PTSD. However, we all know that society won't tolerate any talk of guy survivors. Even high ranking people who should know better.

Why won't they talk about it? Is it because the number of guy survivors is so small it doesn't matter? Try telling that to a women rape survivor. How long would this person last? In the responsible world, hopefully not very long. Yet, in the real world probably longer than we think.

We still keep a weapon close by just to feel better. You have to protect yourself.

How do you protect yourself?

Time to Focus

Staying in for a while and catching up on writing and other stuff. Unless it's Game 1 of the NBA Finals, turn everything off (except for good tunes online) and focus on other things.

We're fighting really hard to not black out due to flashbacks. It's like sensory overload and you don't know what's real and what isn't. It's really exhausting to fight to not dissociate. How do you manage to do all of that and everything else?

Any suggestions, feel free to post some comments.

It's a Holiday Weekend

Nice and sunny today. A holiday weekend. If it's not where you are, we have nothing to do with it.

We're really fighting to keep our focus. At times we don't know where we are and have to grab lots of solid things in the surrounding space. You can't just go with your feelings. It doesn't work like that.

Also, it's covering bases and taking things in tiny segments. Keep your balance and do what you can.

We're adding new things to the blog. Bear with us.

Still Setting This Up

Give us some time to set up this new version of the blog. We have new tools and other stuff coming up.

How are your symptoms? We're really working on stability thru a lot of things. One is thru diet. In a sense, it's like a diabetic. They watch their diet and so do we to help deal with symptoms.

Lots of bases to cover. Have a good day.