How's your day? Here it's getting into the mid '90s during the day. The good news is no snow :). We've done our share of digging out of snowdrifts, chiseling your car out of the giant block of ice it turned into and more. No more.
We're still fighting to focus and wake up in the morning. It's a mix of massage all over to get your chi flowing. It's also a matter of diet (no caffeine or sugar the night before). The idea is this. If you drink this the night before, you're up on the high all night. Then you crash and have hypoglycemic symptoms the next morning. Is this one of the biggest problems in PTSD symptoms? Maybe. We've only seen one study on this.
Then, it's fighting all day long to focus. We've thought about offing ourselves in the past. But we won't do it because we won't give them the satisfaction.
What keeps you going? We keep going because just going with your feelings doesn't work. Do you still feel like if you don't fight back the world will beat you down? Everyone that treated you like s**t will just laugh in your face as you fight to not sink down and fall apart? Do you still have violent flashbacks where you either fight or die? Nothing against vets with PTSD. However, we all know that society won't tolerate any talk of guy survivors. Even high ranking people who should know better.
Why won't they talk about it? Is it because the number of guy survivors is so small it doesn't matter? Try telling that to a women rape survivor. How long would this person last? In the responsible world, hopefully not very long. Yet, in the real world probably longer than we think.
We still keep a weapon close by just to feel better. You have to protect yourself.
How do you protect yourself?
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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