Sunny and 100F here. With the heat index, make that about 108F. Lucky for us, the pool is about 100 yards away.
Other stuff is close by as well. However, we're turning it all off. Trauma survivors have to ask, is this really necessary for me? Many things are second nature. Then again, is it helping you in any way? If not, reconsider and do something else. See how that goes.
We can't handle our trauma and the rest of the world's at the same time. It's too much. What then? Be selective and fight your battles that way.
Everything has to be screened. We have to fight to keep our balance. What else can we do?
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Friday, July 29, 2011
The Effects of Things
It is Friday. Lots of triggering stuff everywhere. Protect yourself as much as possible.
We're trying to pay more attention to the effects of things on our system. Lately, it seems like lots of foods are allergens (in every sense of the word)? Spices. Acidic foods and drinks. Too much sugar (always a bad thing). Are these connected to a high level of cortisol? We're not sure.
Kombucha and white tea helps some in trying to focus. However, symptoms are still there. The despair and dissociating are still rough to handle. So we really try to pay attention to what we do and why we do it.
Do you really have to do something? Or, is it bad second nature?
We're trying to pay more attention to the effects of things on our system. Lately, it seems like lots of foods are allergens (in every sense of the word)? Spices. Acidic foods and drinks. Too much sugar (always a bad thing). Are these connected to a high level of cortisol? We're not sure.
Kombucha and white tea helps some in trying to focus. However, symptoms are still there. The despair and dissociating are still rough to handle. So we really try to pay attention to what we do and why we do it.
Do you really have to do something? Or, is it bad second nature?
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Covering Bases
Finally unpacked in the new place. Now, it's back to job hunting and other stuff.
Part of our routine is setting boundaries as you cover various bases. Nobody else will protect you. Which means that you have to screen everything (and everyone). Do you feel like you can trust anyone after surviving your trauma? We wish we could, but we can't.
We still have to fight symptoms all the time. Do you black out from dissociating? We haven't for a while. However, it's exhausting to feel like you're barely hanging on.
As you fight to maintain your balance, ask some questions:
Do I really need to do this?
If I don't, is it just second nature? Or, destructive?
Setting boundaries shows that you respect yourself (especially when others don't).
If just going with your feelings helps you, fine. However, that doesn't help us.
All trauma survivors deserve to be heard.
More coming soon.
Part of our routine is setting boundaries as you cover various bases. Nobody else will protect you. Which means that you have to screen everything (and everyone). Do you feel like you can trust anyone after surviving your trauma? We wish we could, but we can't.
We still have to fight symptoms all the time. Do you black out from dissociating? We haven't for a while. However, it's exhausting to feel like you're barely hanging on.
As you fight to maintain your balance, ask some questions:
Do I really need to do this?
If I don't, is it just second nature? Or, destructive?
Setting boundaries shows that you respect yourself (especially when others don't).
If just going with your feelings helps you, fine. However, that doesn't help us.
All trauma survivors deserve to be heard.
More coming soon.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Late Night Stuff
Sorry to be off for a while. But we finally got everything cleaned and packed. This week, we'll be offline till Friday as we move into the new place. Then, a weekend to chill.
As we close stuff out, symptoms are still there. Dissociating, flashbacks, some physical pain and lots of moments where you don't know what's real and what isn't. We fight symptoms all day long and then we're exhausted at the end of the day. What else can you do but NOT fight back?
How are your symptoms? What helps you to not snap in two? We scream and fight to be aware of solid things and what's real. But we also feel like we're getting assaulted every day.
It's backed up trauma and it has to come out.
As we close stuff out, symptoms are still there. Dissociating, flashbacks, some physical pain and lots of moments where you don't know what's real and what isn't. We fight symptoms all day long and then we're exhausted at the end of the day. What else can you do but NOT fight back?
How are your symptoms? What helps you to not snap in two? We scream and fight to be aware of solid things and what's real. But we also feel like we're getting assaulted every day.
It's backed up trauma and it has to come out.
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