Happy 2012.

Happy 2012 in whatever time zone you're in. Thanks for the support in helping to spread the word. We now have readers in over 40 states and 30 countries. We never ask for money and everything here is free. The only thing we do ask is to tell others about this unless it endangers you in some way.

For the past couple of days, we've just felt really empty. You go around and get things done. Despite that, that emptiness and occasional despair is there. All of our mental health sources say the same thing. It's backed up trauma coming out. Not everybody heals at the same rate. Which means you're not crazy.

What helps you to deal with despair? We know you can't literally force someone else to understand about trauma. On the other hand, normal human beings have bad days and struggle with everything from abandonment to fighting out suicidal impulses. Will anyone ever give us any reassurance in any way?

We're trying to focus, but dissociating is a non-stop battle. At times we just turn all noise off and just look outside. We're not sure why we still can only take so much. We keep going though.

Some make predictions and have lots of resolutions. We have some predictions. As to the resolutions, we have a few. One would be to continue to maintain our balance as best we can. Another is to keep creating options instead of waiting for them to come to you. Beyond that, we have trouble thinking past two days from now.

The emptiness is still there. Keep your boundaries where necessary. Protect yourself because nobody else will. Finally, keep up the word-of-mouth advertising. It really does work.