A Sense of Balance

Happy long holiday weekend (if you have it). If not, don't blame me.

Nice, sunny, and symptoms are still there. We still have to shock ourselves awake in the morning. If the sugar level is low, drinking some glucose sometimes helps to balance your system. However, we still have to fight to focus.

Other health stuff? Our tolerance for caffeine is gone. A tiny amount sets off depression, dissociating and other problems. We're going with our system is still healing after massive junk food abuse. Flashbacks and physical pain still happen. You pull up to some intersection and look around. Is everyone else a psycho rapist that wants to kill you? If necessary we still take a weapon hidden in our bag, just to feel safe.

You can't beat understanding of trauma into others. On the other hand, do you think we like pain and humiliation? Endless body pain and flashbacks? Feeling like you have to fight 24 hours a day to not black out? How about almost feeling like you have to cure yourself because no one else can be bothered to pay attention?

We just want a sense of balance.