We're at home tonight. Lots to do before another week of jobhunting.
There's also lots of emptiness. Made a discovery that might help with some sense of balance. Everybody has their good and bad side. Maybe unintentionally for a long time we've been suppressing our bad side? We're not homicidal, racist, homophobic or wanting to attack everyone we see. Yet that anger is there. At times it feels like we're THIS CLOSE to snapping. You want to scream in a crowded place, but you don't. How do you deal with this and get out of there safely? It feels like we're being bombarded with sick twisted thoughts. Is it just one of my multiples, or just my bad side? I'm not sure.
There's anger and despair. A feeling of being abandoned and many not giving a shit about it. Just shut up and go away. You also need to get help. Just don't be around me. Do you have this at times from others?
Is anyone ever going to give us any reassuring contact at all?
We have no tolerance for stimulants. The tiniest amount means depression and other symptoms. How do you get around that in your diet? Any acidic drinks make us sick.
There are all signs of healing?
We're just trying to move ahead in the most positive way we can.
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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