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Right now, no noise. No triggering stuff. Just focus on writing.

We've stopped eating some former favorite foods. Why? Because they're too triggering. You feel empty and depressed (not to mention the acidic content which makes depression even worse). Why are we doing this? Think of all the money we'll save.

Other stuff are sources that we used to go to for information. Now, what's the point? We feel like we're three steps ahead (maybe we'll get our own global news show now)? We try to keep in mind that we're not responsible for saving the world. Pick your battles and do what you can. However, your protection comes first.

There's still emptiness and anger as well. Does the slightest amount of stimulants of any kind set off symptoms? Do we really have no tolerance anymore for this? On really bad days you feel like you're literally bouncing off the walls. Now, deal with that AND everything else you have to do in the day.

Do we have to always feel exhausted to finally have some relief from symptoms? Since trauma is trapped energy on a cellular level, is it like being hyperactive? This means no ritalin. Just burn it all off?

We're stuck for what to say next.

(PAUSE FOR DRAMATIC EFFECT).

We still have to be careful in trying to find and hold onto positive things. Is not knowing where you are trapped energy as well (in various symptoms)? We think we have something. Then, some sick pedophile comes ut and wants to go down on us and then kill us. You have to fight your way out of it. You can't just sit back and do nothing. Otherwise, the pain (body memory, flashbacks and more) is to much to bear.

Another scary part of this is the feeling that nobody's there. You look around for help in literally every direction, and nobody's there. Is anyone going to come? Does anybody care at all? I try to reassure my multiples and little kid that I do.

Do you cry and then feel totally empty? How do you do deal with that?

Trust me. I have no desire to be a professional patient. I've always believed that trying to face this head on in the most non-threatening way possible is the right thing to do. Then again, at times you have those moments where you literally curl up on your couch and can't move.

Please link us legitimately every where you can. No spam links of any kind. We're almost in all 50 states. Now, almost up to 40 countries. Better than Goldman Sachs.