Ever have the feeling that all of the trauma that you didn't ask for is hitting you all at once? You feel like you have to take things in ten second increments. How do you then get through the next ten? You try to keep your ph balanced so you don't go to an extreme either way and then feel totally depressed. However, it's still there.
It feels like all of the trauma is hitting us at once. Other than two live therapists that helped for a short time, literally almost no one else ever did. You have to fight thru the symptoms and keep your sense of balance. If you don't, you feel like an empty shell. You have no choice.
You try to balance this with everything else you have to do during the day. You also cry and fight to not black out when you pull up to an intersection and everybody seems like a threat. The guy next to us. Is he a psycho rapist that wants to go down on us and then kill us? You have to fight your way out of that and not feel trapped. Flashbacks come out of nowhere. You have to fight to not black out. Are you feeling like you're disappearing into another person? Do you feel like you have no sensation in parts of your body due to adrenalin surges? How do you cope with feeling bombarded with intuition?
Does anybody care?
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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