All in Tiny Segments

Fighting emptiness all day long. Some say set it aside and concentate on other stuff. Others say face it head on.

Flashbacks and physical pain still happen. Lately, it's been anal pain. The lucid dreams are usually some pedophile trying to go down on you or pin you in one spot. If you say anything, no one will believe you, and I'll kill you. So why fight?

No one's there to help you. All you hear from them is don't blame us. It's your fault, so you fix it.

Naturally, we fight back with whatever weapon we can. Then we have to fight our way back to some sense of balance. Now, do that about one hundred times a day and then everything else you have to do.

Not all but many want nothing to do with it. This isn't a "crisis". So please just shut up and go away. Leave this line open for people with "real" emergencies.

At times, offing ourselves comes to mind. However, we won't give them the satisfaction.

Still can't go to a new therapist due to money. The last free one we talked to probably thinks we're crazy. I told him about my multiples and little kid. Then it was the "you have 25 multiple personalities. Right......" response.

Did we ask for this? No. When was the last time you met someone who didn't judge you because you're a trauma survivor? We don't fit a nice neat catagory. Which usually means just go away.

Like it or not. All trauma survivors deserve to be heard.