Sorry to be offline. We've been busy with password databases and trying to avoid triggering stuff. It literally feels like other than baseball or football, there's nothing safe to watch anymore. Other than music, it's the same thing on radio.
Why is this happening? We're not sure. However, we follow the "be selective in fighting your battles" approach in activism. Your protection comes first. Not singlehandedly saving the world.
We're staying in tonight and the doors are locked. We have our lemonade and are trying to avoid a latenight snack. Aside from that, we still keep a knife in the room because we feel safer with it. Sick twisted lucid dreams and flashbacks happen. Physical pain from being raped still happens. Try fighting off some psycho that wants to go down on you and then stab you fifty times a day. Then, all the other things you have to do.
You don't have a choice but to fight back. Just "going with your feelings" doesn't work. If it helps you, great. It doesn't help us though.
Lots of people tell you you need to get help. Just don't be around me.
You scream and at times feel like you're going to snap. However, you have to get the anger out. How do you cope with that?
At times we feel empty and just turn everything off. Then we go sit out on our balcony and just listen to the quiet outside. You feel like you have to set boundaries because it's too much to handle.
Do you still feel bombarded by stimulus all the time? What helps you to stay centered? Feel free to post comments.
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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