Sorry to be offline for a while. But we're in a new place and almost unpacked. It's a downsized version of the last one. However, it's more comfortable and has a huge balcony. Overall, very nice.
Symptoms have also been rough to handle as well. Dissociating, flashbacks and some physical pain at times. You have to fight back so you don't snap. You also have to deal with everything else at the same time. This means driving and fighting not to black out. Crippling despair from feeling like the world could care less. What other choice do you have?
Do you cry yourself to sleep at night? Do you keep a weapon in the room to feel safe? We still do that at times. Even though the doors are locked, that doesn't matter. You have to protect yourself.
Does trauma still come flooding out? In our case it does. We don't know all of the underlying reasons. But it's there. We can't afford to go back to a therapist. Which means use other sources in the meantime for help.
Protect yourself at all costs.
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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