It's All in the Balance

The late night snack tonight? Peanut butter and orange juice. Hopefully the protein will balance out with the sugar rush.

More emptiness at times throughout today. You know you have things to do. But it takes a huge amount of energy to do them. Everything still has to be screened. It seems like more and more sources that used to work for information can't be trusted anymore. What are you gonna do?

Fight because you don't have a choice. Just sitting back and "going with your feelings" doesn't work. If we don't fight back, we feel like we're going to snap.

Our tolerance for sugar is almost gone. In the morning, it's one glass of juice. Then, lots of water and green tea. Lemon juice mixed with the water seems to help balance the p/h levels. Also, it seems like nobody's ever examined this in a study. Hopefully we're not giving somebody an idea for a future bestseller by mentioning this.

Does your fight-or-flight mechanism get stuck? We still have to fight everyday to feel like we have some sense of balance? Then, you have to fight again.

Do lucid dreams and flashbacks happen? They still hit us (usually at the worst times). Many times it's some psycho rapist trying to pin us down. Going down on us as we scream to fight back and nobody listens and nobody cares. Then, you fight your way back to reality. After that, you have to fight again.

Have you ever blacked out and then come to and not know where you are? It's been a while since that's happened.

All we want is a sense of balance.