Even though it's late here, screen everything. A tough day today fighting dissociating. It's non-stop trying to focus and maintain your balance. He'll kill us.
A constant battle against physical pain of being raped. The psycho rapist wants to go down on you. You f*****g kill him first or he'll kill us. No one's going to help us. Just "going with your feelings" means we'll snap and die. Do we really want to feel like a f*****g piece of meat again? Do we really want time to slow down and feel terrified that we can't move?
At times we feel like we're going to snap in two. We scream all day long and fight to not black out. How do you look cool and calm on the outside and not snap?
Triggers are everywhere. How do you protect yourself?
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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