Emptiness

Covered a lot of stuff today. However, emptiness is still there.

Flashbacks still happen. Despair is paralyzing. You feel like you literally can't move, and what's the point anyway? There's nowhere to turn. Is anyone going to help? No.

We go for a walk. We turn everything off. Then, hold onto solid things to focus on. Despite all that, at times symptoms are still there. Now what?

You try to keep in mind it's not your fault. As you do, split second flashbacks happen of horrible pain of being raped. You scream and fight to not give up and die. Nobody will help you. Does anybody else care?

At other times you feel like you just take up space. Then you literally have to shock yourself back into some sense of balance. If you don't, you feel like you're going to disappear. You don't have a choice.

Keep in mind it's not your fault. Set boundaries and protect yourself at all costs.

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