We're at home and covering lots of bases. Everything takes an enormous amount of energy. We feel really empty. We didn't get much sleep last night. Ended up fighting lots of anger, flashbacks and more.
Today, we're here but everything feels empty. We go thru the motions, but what then? Our resumes are rewritten and we can cover lots of applications. It's still a mix of in-person and online.
Symptoms are still there. Lucid dreams are rough to handle. It's fight off the psycho pedophile . Then, adrenalin surges. After that, sick flashbacks. You scream and fight , but no one listens or will help. Split second images of suicide happen. No chance of doing that, though.
It feels like we're getting assaulted every day. Then you can barely move. Can you let your guard down? Or, will you get jumped? We're not asking for perfection. Just a healthy balance.
Breath deeply. It's not real. Nobody else is in the room. Ok, then why do the flashbacks keep happening? Split second terrifying scenes of being raped and no one cares. The sources we trust all say this is normal. It has to come out.
We scream and feel like we're going to snap. If we black out, what then? Will we know where we are?
Hold onto solid things. Then try to stay grounded. Focus on things in the room.
Then what?
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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