Like lots of survivors, we're trying really hard to face it head on. Don't fall into the trap of screw therapy. All therapists are greedy, evil and worthless. We know that's not true. We also know that we're trying for balance. NOT perfection.
That being said, we need some help. These are some things that we're dealing with. We apologize in advance if this triggers anyone. We never try to intentionally trigger anyone. If this bothers you, stop now. If not, keep going and post any comments that could be helpful. Please, no spam. If you do it, we'll delete it. So don't even bother.
We fight suicidal lucid dreams. You feel like nobody listens and nobody cares. Ok, then there's no point in me being here? We have to fight not stabbing ourselves, feeling the pain and then the terror of wondering, are we alive or not?
We fight the psycho pedophile that wants to go down on us and then kill us. There's physical pain as we get fucked in the ass and want to scream but we can't. Nobody's going to listen, care or help us.
We're afraid to go to sleep. Will we be able to focus on something good? Or, will the psycho pedophile get in the way and say, fuck you. You don't deserve happiness?
If nobody reassures you with a hug or any physical contact, will this permenantly damage you in some way?
Sorry, we can't handle anymore. Thanks for reading.
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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