Another day of fighting symptoms and trying not to snap because of anger. Lots of driving around, screaming and fighting to not black out. Now, we'll stay home for a while and keep all the triggering stuff off.
Our fight-or-flight mechanism is still stuck. It takes enormous effort to focus and try to get the anger out. It's like there's a barrier there and you have to keep pushing to get past it to try and get it out. If you stop, then dissociating gets worse. Now, do that all day long AND everything else you have to get done.
We don't have a choice. At times, we do think about going to the roof of our building or somewhere else. What happens if we did jump? We won't, because we won't give them the satisfaction. Then again, what else can we do?
Protect yourself at all costs.
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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