It really is Friday. Another day of screaming to focus as you try to wake up. Then, how do you keep your balance duing the day? Trauma survivors are very suseptible to chemical changes (junk food, caffeine and other stuff). You fight to keep your focus and not snap. If dissociating happens, at times you don't know where you are. At other times, depression is severe.
It's trauma flooding out. Also, we're smart enough to know that we have to get it out. If we don't, we'll just fall apart. You feel like an empty shell and then say, what's the point? Anger still lashes out as well. We don't have a gun at home because it's too expensive. But we do still keep a knife at home and take it with us hidden in our bag if necessary. Why? Because we feel safe with it.
You have to fight back. You just can't sit back and go with your feelings.
Do you still have flashbacks? Do you have lucid dreams of being raped? Do you have horrible visions of dying and nobody cares? We do.
One good thing. It's three weeks now with no caffeine. And there's definately a connection between that and your adrenal glands.
Protect yourself at all costs.
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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