Finally had enough and turned everything off. Just sit, write and set boundaries where necessary.
One rough aspect of PTSD? Trauma is energy trapped in different parts of your body. If triggering stuff happens, it can throw your balance way off. Then you have to fight really hard to regain that. Usually it takes hours and hours to do it. Then how do you other stuff without feeling totally wiped out?
Our fight-or-flight mechanism is still stuck. You fight to get anger out without blacking out. You go thru a checkout line and try not to dissociate. Look cool and calm on the outside. On the inside, you're this close to snapping.
It feels like all the trauma's coming out at once. Everyone that treated you like shit is trying to beat you down. You can't just sit and do nothing. Even though it's lucid dreams, you have to fight back. You don't have a choice. If you're not careful, you feel like you're going to vanish. And no one will ever know or care.
Have you ever had a symptom free day?
Since there's no instant cure for trauma, how do you deal with it? Break it down into small increments so it feels "manageable".
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