How's your coping going? Despite not being able to go back to a regular therapist, we use other sources to help us out when needed. We're also still following our holistic program to try and cope (diet, exercise, Tai Chi and meditation and more).
Many talk about PTSD. Is it a mental illness? Is it an emotional disorder? We think of it as a problem that you do your best to deal with and heal from. It's not worth the time and effort to try and fit into someone else's idea of what you should be (in our opinion). Instead, try and be as balanced and proactive as you can. Not perfection. But balance.
Does PTSD and trauma ever go away? Just like economists debating qualitative easing, there are lots of opinions on this. Yes, but gradually. No, you're stuck with it. So shut up and go away. And various other ideas.
Our trauma (anger and more) is still coming out. Our fight-or-flight mechanism is still stuck. We have to fight to get anger out to the point of almost blacking out. If we don't, we feel like we're just empty. The whole world is trying to beat us down. And we can't have that.
Have you ever had a day without symptoms? A day without hyperawareness and feeling like you have to fight all the time? We haven't. As we're writing this, we have to stop at various times to fight and focus. We have to fight to get anger out and not dissociate. At times it feels like it's a sample that you can't turn off. You deep breathe and do other grounding stuff. However, it's still there.
What do you do then?
One idea. When you're online, plug in your earphones and try to listen to either white noise or just something safe and non-triggering. Make sure it's pre-screened so it's not a threat. As we come across helpful stuff, we'll post it in the links section.
NOTE: Thanks for the support. We're now read in 35 states and in 20 countries.
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